The Fear Of Lacking

In these past few weeks at liberty I've been taking into account the expenses worrying about how Ill be covering certain costs for the rest of the semester.I started getting tighter with money as weeks progressed.Not giving the opportunity to truly fellowship with the ladies in my quad because I thought I don't have the money to spend it on outings.

Yet I forgot the provisional breakthrough I experienced this year.If there's a grey area of my life I've constantly have a fear of is not having enough financially.Almost for any decision the first thought was How much?That prevented me from enjoy many blessings.It was also a blockage that keep me from truly trusting God to be a faithful provider.

One night as I prayed with my Uchurch family after a Summer Bonfire I brought up these feelings of mistrust and they shared this verse with me "Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they?-Matthew 6:26 This brought me to the perspective that God cares about me more than I think he does.When I released that worry to him God came through providing all the money necessary for housing,books,and tuition at Liberty.

This week I was taken right back to that moment.A roommate of mine wrote a thoughtful note in my Bible that said Rest in God.To her it seemed minor but it spoke to me to rest in knowing that God is more than able to cover all of my needs if not more.I ended up going to the bookstore that same day to buy Cards with words of encouragement writing a personal note to all of my nine roommates.

This same week as I was in the computer lab printing out a paper.There was an older man working as a Janitor who looked exhausted from working.On my way out there's a vending machine something was prompting me to buy him a bottle of water.Just as I got the thought well God I'm not working and I'm not one that's well off financially so I cant.Immediately I felt God say look around you Mimi look at where I've placed you.If I provided for you to get here I will continue to do so while your here.

A psalm of David. The LORD is my light and my salvation--so why should I be afraid? The LORD is my fortress, protecting me from danger, so why should I tremble?I realized its pointless to tremble in fear over having no money.

I encourage you even if your a college student believe God for abundance not just for yourself but so that your able to bless others.To show how Christ can divinely interfere in our finances and leave us without lacking in anything.

Hope Arise..

This Past Friday a thought I had was you know what God this week marks a milestone of being at Liberty for a Month.Time for me to have an exciting time in the area for once.A Quad mate of mine invites me to checkout the downtown area for the first time.I thought wow it would be nice to tour the sites in the Lynchburg Area.

When the festival was over as we were walking back to the parking lot I asked myself this question I wonder what it would be like to reach out to this community? Out of nowhere the gal giving me a ride back home says to me I'm involved with an organization on campus that visits the children that live in a low income neighborhoods on Saturdays.

These children mostly have parents that are convicted felons.We visit them regularly to love on them as a community.I told her that sounds amazing hopefully I'm able to wake up in the morning cause I usually sleep in.

Don't ask me how it happened but I woke up with a text that said she was leaving in thirty minutes. I got ready,ate breakfast,and even had time to pack up nail polishes,nail polish remover,and cotton balls.These girls didn't know me at all but were immediately attached to the hip to me they were excited to meet a liberty student.

One of the girls shared how its her dream to go here for college when she gets older.As we were sitting down they all begged to do my nails and makeup. She started sharing with me how she would like to be a singer when she grows up and I told her cool I sing too.The girl next to her said oh really? Let me hear you sing.

She stared at me anxiously waiting for a note to come out.I told her okay what do you want me to sing honey? her reply anything.So I sang the song Hopes Anthem by Bethel Music which without even realizing it I was ministering hope to these girls.They all clapped and cheered with excitement that they had convinced me to sing telling me I had a beautiful angelic voice.

When I left back to my dorm I ended up crying out to God asking him to please be with these girls.Don't ever make me lose a burdened heart for the lost,hopeless or the broken.Forgive me for just thinking of ways of How I can have a good time on weekends and edify myself.

My hope is these young girls wont ever lose hope or sight of the endless possibilities that God has set for them.That success wont just be the only objective but the desire for a fulfilling life in Christ.

Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.Proverbs 13:12

How Did I Get Here?

Where Can I go from your spirit? or Where Shall I flee from your presence?-Psalm 139:7 These exacts same words from the psalmist David are what I was able to relate to in these last couple of days.Leaving behind a church family that I was close to going miles away from the love,encouragement,and support I’m accustomed to really hit me hard last week at Liberty.Experiencing sickness,tiredness,and disappointment with not finding a Church home similar to Grace Covenant after browsing around.All of these feelings had me irritated and annoyed so I ended up withdrawing myself from spending time with new acquaintances.

This year I had made a declaration that no matter where God took me or how things ended up through my whole transition process my Lips would glorify you.Unfortunately I ended up complaining over minor issues like a class being too long,snapping at those around me,and no amount of joy was breathing out of me.

That began to alarm me someone known for their ongoing joy,smile,and laughter vanished.Going from singing songs of praise to speaking words of discontentment.Although I’m in a christian college its easy to get comfortable and casual with worship or prayer because its routine .Monday morning was a moment when something really shook me.As I was getting ready for class I sang the song by Bethel your praise will forever be on my lips.I realized Lord wow where did that Mindset Go? that focus has somehow left my heart.As I sang I ended up on my knees asking for forgiveness for allowing the pointless nonsense disturb me and interrupt Gods peace.

God reminded me that his presence is everywhere I go whether I'm in Northern VA,Canada,California,Chicago,Or lynch burg Hes with me.His presence could never depart from me but if I'm not careful and consistently seeking him everyday I can fall into the danger of wandering away.I shouldn't have been surprised that the words of my mouth weren't edifying to those around me.Scripture says The good person out of the good treasure of his heart produces good, and the evil person out of his evil treasure produces evil, for out of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaks.Gods Love cant flow in abundance if I'm not abiding in his presence.As a believer if we aren't aren't constantly seeking alone time with God will be dry,burned out,and completely out of it.